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[03 Jun 2008|03:50am] |
nobody reads my enteries.
Weather its cause im dull or cause i dont post any? i dont really know.
but if by anychance you want to read my journal i'm going to give up hope on LJ completly and go to
welcometotheshatteredheartsopera
i actually update there.
I don;t know, it looks cleaner, its easier to use and i overall prefer it.
I will still come here to read somepeople here but whatevesss.
go on there if you want. doesnt bother nor fazeeee me :D
Lovelove xxxx
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[01 Jun 2008|03:43pm] |
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People fuck up. I know that. I accept that. I fuck up myself.
Yet when it comes to sex. people shouldn't be allowed to. I know people make mistakes when it comes to choosing who their first times with.
I'm 17. soon to be 18. And i'm still a virgin. I've made sure i wont have a story like everyone else. "i was drunk. i was pressured." I;ve been drunk. i've been pressured. yet i havent sunk that low to do it with someone whos feelings we'rent even lukewarm. i think thats why i find it hard to accept others when they tell me about why they done it. If i can do it, you can do it. I'm proof.
so hm.
I hate it more when a boy i thought i knew everything about for almost 4 years tells me that he had sex with this girl who i truely hate.
Eugh. i'm so emotional. i hate it.
i feel discusted.
must you fuck anything with a pulse?
sex fucks everything up. I'm bored with it and i havent evenn done it yet.
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| What would i think of me? |
[30 May 2008|01:47pm] |
Okay, imagine you've just stumbled across your own diary and from the posts there now, try and make a prejudice about yourself.
If i was an onlooker onto my diary i would think
this girl seems lazy. she doesn't update much.
this girl seems like people don't say nice stuff to her often so when they do she feels the need to post it for others to maybe see, possibly get a little bit jealous? Maybe she just wants to keep them where she knows where to find them for a ego boost?
Once words are said they don't mean much. They buzz around the room for a fair few seconds then bam, something else is said and they don't matter.
This girl is borderline bi-polar. she cannot really seem to make her mind up about her feelings. she rants about size 00 yet calls herself fat.
She made a post about how she has the best friend ever, yet how did it come to the point where she stoppedtalking to het for a month on friday?
I don't get her. she seems a little bit unfriendly. in her own world maybe. possibily cares for others feelings but has strange moods where only hers matter.
I realy would think that about me. Numb empty feelings.
Hurt is all relative really.
Once you've been stabbed through the chest with a drill you're not going to whine about a papercut.
Lately i've been feeling about my "fearing commitment". It's complete bulllshitt.
It's fake, its fabricated.
I fear beingin a realionship with J.... and C... doesn't mean i fear relationships. why does it always have to be them two? Maybe i need someone new, who doesn't play a complete mindfuck on me. someone whos right for me.
Mixture of feelings. Books make me think. i cannot seem to help it.
I'll try and sort it out.
mayyyyybe.
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| Two Thousand and Six |
[30 May 2008|01:40pm] |
2006.
I don't know if i would go back given half a chance.
Fridays were fun, i suppose. Where drinking cider and acting like a slut was almost manditory.
Where everything was a huge mindfuck game, and everything ended in petty arguments & worry.
I don't know why when i think back it was so much fun.
Watching my best friend get beaten up and tickets from the police certianly wasn't.
it felt that week after week, every friday would be the same. Drink. laugh. kiss then run for the 12.03 train.
And on the saturday we would all go to a field and consume more cheap liquid to intoxicate us.
It was fun. maybe i'd do it again.
but going back their now? I'm not sure.
I love the people i met and the laughs we had.
It all seems stupid.
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| Summer, Baby <3 |
[11 May 2008|05:49pm] |
Tanned legs look so much slimmer and longer then my usual pasty things.
I really cannot wait for this year, most of my friends are legal so alcohol all round :)
I need a skirt. A nice denim one. Not too short not too long :)
I also need to get out into the sun. Can't fake tan forever can i :)
WOOP!
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| Love is stronger than any grudge. |
[11 May 2008|01:23am] |
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I love him.
soso
claire. says (01:19): good claire. says (01:19): cause homer is my fucking favorite. claire. says (01:19): i'm off to bedforshire claire. says (01:19): loveeeyou to the moon and back mister claire. says (01:19): xxxxxxx :) StuTV. says (01:20): love you too my angel xxxx
StuTV. says (01:18): homer simpson reminds you of me
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| oh how i love thee. |
[29 Mar 2008|12:22am] |
StuTV. I Think You're Devine. says (00:19):
stu loves karl
StuTV. I Think You're Devine. says (00:19):
I MEANT CLCAIRE
StuTV. I Think You're Devine. says (00:19):
*CLAIRE
StuTV. I Think You're Devine. says (00:19):
FUCK
claire. says (00:19):
LMAO
StuTV. I Think You're Devine. says (00:19):
FUCK
StuTV. I Think You're Devine. says (00:19):
FUCK
StuTV. I Think You're Devine. says (00:19):
FUCK
StuTV. I Think You're Devine. says (00:19):
FUCK
claire. says (00:19):
*cries heart out*
StuTV. I Think You're Devine. says (00:19):
stu loves claire
StuTV. I Think You're Devine. says (00:20):
(:(
claire. says (00:20):
lmao
StuTV. I Think You're Devine. says (00:20):
love youuu
claire. says (00:20):
im laughing so muchHehe
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[28 Mar 2008|04:31pm] |
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Stu didn't like me.
Only as a best friend
but my emotion of liking him meant fuck all compaired to my emotion of fear of losing him as a best friend.
therefore it equaled itself out and although it would be great if he liked me.
its so great that hes my bestest friend:)
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| bffl |
[20 Mar 2008|10:53pm] |
Karl, says:
i love you claire
Karl, says:
like well laods
Karl, says:
i was watching a video
Karl, says:
with you in it
Karl, says:
and i jsut thought
Karl, says:
she actually such an unque an amazing girl
Karl, says:
and you are
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| Ilovehim |
[09 Mar 2008|12:25am] |
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Karl. I Loved You First... says (00:23):
hes 14 and ugly :|
claire. says (00:23):
14?? oh but he has nice hair!! it goes woosh ^_________________^
Karl. I Loved You First... says (00:24):
so does a firework doesnt mean i want to shove my cock in it
claire. says (00:24):
touche
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[04 Feb 2008|06:40am] |
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Kyle - Tírame a las arañas says (06:39):
cos i wanna go see sammy, but she dosn't get back from the farm till half 5 :)claire. says (06:39):
is sammy a goat or something 8-)?
i know sammy isnt a goat, i just felt like being a dick.
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| :) |
[30 Jan 2008|10:37pm] |
i saw him today.
he didnt talk much
i asked why
he said he was nervous.
was it cause of me:|?
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| claiRAWR |
[28 Jan 2008|12:09am] |
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| Josh Bosh |
[20 Jan 2008|02:35am] |
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Josh!... says (00:40): i rmemebr when i first made out with you on the hil Josh!... says (00:40): and after i was like at alex's i was like Josh!... says (00:40): damn who was she Josh!... says (00:40): and getting angry Josh!... says (00:40): cuz it was my first, random as fuck make out up in hitchin Josh!... says (00:40): (L) Josh!... says (00:40): you took my random virginity
lmao and
Josh!... says (00:42): you going to adams party? Josh!... says (00:42): i need to see you claire. says (00:42): yeahh i amm Josh!... says (00:42): awesome :)
hahaha i love him xD
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| Amazing. |
[15 Jan 2008|11:15pm] |
Wouldn't it be amazing if after 6 years of liking you, you would like me back :|?
It really would.
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| Stole another idea. |
[15 Jan 2008|12:27am] |
"Look around. Describe the first photograph you see. What does it mean to you?"
The first picture I see is this:
This happens to be one of my favorite pictures ever!
It is a photo of my best friend Karl and I on a drunken night out, before it got to cold. We were messing around dancing in the street, when he mentioned how "cool" his boxers supposedly were. So he showed me but it was too dark, so i pulled his trousers down!! Ha! Then my friend Deborah said it looked like a photo moment, so we posed. Each time we have gone out now, he wears "cool" boxers and shows me.
I just love how comfortable he must be with me and Debs to be able to do that, when usually he is a very self-consious boy.
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[12 Jan 2008|02:43pm] |
him - got a boyfriend?
me - no.
him - aww bless.
me - bless? why? i happen to like being single, guys are complete fucks, i hate them..... no offence.
Why feel sorry for me being single?
not like i have cancer :|
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| A piece of heaven. |
[04 Jan 2008|12:36am] |
I must have stabbed her 50 fucking times, i can't believe it.
Ripped her heart out right before her eyes and made her eat it EAT IT EAT IT.
:)
I'VE LIKED YOU FAR TOO LONG.
6YEARS TO BE EXACT.
like me more than that girl ?
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| Tattoo. |
[13 Dec 2007|12:19am] |
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claire ;D says (00:18): LOL dont get a cartoon !! MIDGET™ says (00:18): be a laugh tho
claire ;D says (00:18): Not when you're 20!!
people like that arent mature enough for tattoos.
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| just a little. |
[08 Dec 2007|03:20pm] |
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The day youu just call yourself "craig." is the day i will finally be ready for a relationship with you.
Yeah, i won't tell you this, work it out?
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